It all started like this
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Ninth grade freshman year
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So happy to be in high school
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I shedded a tear
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So many cute dudes to choose from
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I knew it was one
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That was right for me
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Well I thought at least
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He was the big guy on campus
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On the football team
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Basketball homecoming
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He was voted for king
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And there was me
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I was on the cheerleading squad
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Sweet six-teen looking for love in my heart
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It was a beautiful thing from the start
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I must say only problem was
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My parents was strict
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They ain't play
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No phone calls after eight
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No staying out late
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I'm like dam give me a break
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Hormones kicking in
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Start displaying my shape
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More concern with my looks
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Then my books and grades
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Headed no where fast
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I was on my way
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Curiosity come on
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I know yall relate
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It's been a year now I'm a sophomore
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Mature and know more
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But still I'm young and dumb
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And plus I'm unsure
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Who I am
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What the future has in store
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Man I'm trying to be grown
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Cuz my parents now divorced
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I took a charge to roll with Dough Boy
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Moms tried to force me to move to New York
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But of course that plan it fail short
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She found herself caught up in court
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For child support
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Drama problems of all sorts
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Stressing started smoking new ports
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Carefree about the ones who care for me
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Lost teen giving up on my dream
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And as worst as it seems
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Had me thinking crazy things
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Like suicide that better everything if I jus die
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Fullblown without guidance or a home
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I'm startin to get stomache pains
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That's strange what could be wrong
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What do I do
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I ask myself everyday
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A child given birth to a child
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What can I say
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This wasn't suppose too happen
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Here I am turned my back on my fam
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Well god dam
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This wasn't even part of the plan
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I'm spazzin out
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When I lay down at night the hurt
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Just burst out I shout how could he leave
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At my time of need
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Especially now I'm pregnant
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And due in three
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Maybe I should have it
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And give it for adoption
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I can't graduate
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I aint been to school since august
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Often I hear this voice talking
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In the back of my mind
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So problems in my life
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I just pray for my time to come
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God take me leave my child behind
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I'm on the run adrenalin pumpin
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So angry I could kill something
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Don't make me prove it
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Cause if you don't do it
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Then I will do it
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I'm foolish and so stupid
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It's Not A Fairytale
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Sarai |