giving into love and sharing my time
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letting someone into my misery
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i told it all step by step
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how i landed on the island
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and how i swam across the sea
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and it crosses my mind
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that i may wake to a knife in me
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no more breath in my hair
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or ladies' underwear
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tossed up over the alarm clock
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blood dripping from the bed
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to a neatly written poem
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a heartfelt last line reading
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there is no more mystery
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it it going to happen my love
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it's all in your head she said
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morning after nightmare
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you're building a wall she said
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higher than the both of us
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so try living life
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instead of hiding in the bedroom
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show me a smile
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and i'll promise not to leave you
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it happened under a rainy cloud
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passing through the dark south
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we went into a big house
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and slept in a small bed
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i didn't know you then
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as well as you of me
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we talked of our sad lives
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and we went off separately
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i found your overseas souvenirs
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holiday greeting cards
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and some long forgotten high school fears
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it's all in my head i said
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banging a piano
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i've not been so alone i thought
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since kicking in the womb
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i drank so much tea
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i wrote my letters in kanji
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around the block i walked and walked
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pretending you were with me
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not wanting to die out here
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without you
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the hurting never ends
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like birthdays and old friends
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we forget what is flesh blood and bone is human
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turning phone lines to airlines
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unwilling to face
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the love is found on the inside not the outside
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and like a medicine bottle
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in the cabinet i'll keep you
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and like a medicine bottle
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in my hand i will hold you
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and swallow you slowly
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as to last me a lifetime
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without holding too tight
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i do not want to lose
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the thrill that it gives me
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to look out from my window
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and scowl at the houses
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from my world in the bedroom
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it's all in my head she read
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in her girlfriend's self-help book
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it's all his own making
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a war with himself
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like two sides of a wall
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that separates two countries
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he shuts out the world
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and wants only to love you
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not wanting to die out here
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without you
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Medicine Bottle
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Red House Painters |