this is to the woman who I loved but lost.
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intertwined souls of the universe got divorced.
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but it wasn't forced. got single thoughts of being double crossed,
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still there's no love lost.
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now i can't even start this. i see no light inside the darkness.
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so whatcha want, miss? don't check my pulse because i'm heartless.
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you were my life support. and in a sense my defense fights the thought.
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i'll try to keep this one nice and short.
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our four chambers beat in unison.
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I'm wanting you to listen to the dead silence in my defiance.
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i used to sin and be intrigued by violence,
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now as i glimpse into the past i thank God for your guidance.
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alas, i give my eyes a rinse.
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blink and think in retrospect...realize you need to get your respect.
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i apologize as i holler cries
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'cause it's you and not these college guys that keeps my knowledge wise.
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you're my crutch. but now i fall cause you're someone i can't touch.
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now no one wants to help me up and that's too much.
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even my wisdom fell. i'm in a living hell.
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throw my inner child back in the prison cell.
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incarcerated hatred is causing conflict
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with the free love sentencing death to the convict.
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my soul is on skid row, where can this kid go?
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i'm homeless, how could you notice when this whole world didn't know?
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it's time i make public just how personal we got in private moments,
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because lies are our opponents.
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forget material or superficial stuff.
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i either let you know too much or not enough.
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this is to the woman who i loved but lost.
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intertwined souls of the universe got divorced.
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but it wasn't forced. got single thoughts
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of being double crossed, still there's no love lost. There's no love lost.
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I can't pretend this. The impact on my life has been tremendous.
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It can't be fixed with a friendly kiss
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What's endless?
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Questions, pain, grief and misbelief?
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I'm so faithful all I grind is my teeth.
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But what I find beneath the surface has changed from priceless to worthless.
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This three ring circus of clowning around is what hurts us.
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My brain short circuits as my mind starts to wander
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to discover another lover. I'm isolated, living somber.
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She's whispering "come hither from there yonder."
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I don't think i wanna. The pressure ain't gettin' lesser.
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Open my dresser...it overflows with memorabilia.
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Momentos of our success now symbolize my failure.
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I took time to write you diaries when we couldn't speak much.
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According to you that was a weak touch.
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Cause "actions speak louder than words." Turn up your hearing aid.
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You made this man afraid. Put the pin back in the hand grenade.
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There's not much time left til I'm left with nothing but a broken promise.
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While every syllable I said was spoken honest.
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We expected each other to be a physic mind reader.
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Don't tell me "life goes on." I need her...
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Next to me...
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So once again I can feel the high of ecstasy...
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We tripped...walking down the aisle of destiny.
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Respectful sexually, because see...I understood.
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And I don't know too many people who would
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have done anything to get a laugh from their better half.
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I should have sensed it sooner...when you lost your sense of humor.
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Now let my soul speak, I couldn't eat for a whole week.
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With no sleep. The price I pay for being a control freak.
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Now I'm screaming inside my pillow instead of dreaming.
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I must have said "I love you" so much that it lost it's meaning.
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But no one's perfect, so where's my chance to make adjustments?
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It's worth it...if our romance had substance.
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Because with purity we conceived marriage.
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Til insecurity caused a miscarriage
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this is to the woman who i loved but lost.
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intertwined souls of the universe got divorced.
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but it wasn't forced. got single thoughts of being double crossed...
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I was in it for the long run
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Now who's the weak and the strong one?
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I tried to be Mr. Right, though things were wrongly done.
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but ummmm...When it was time for sacrifice
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Straight up, you didn't have to ask me twice.
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I put off this rap device.
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I wasn't ACTING nice, all my feelings they were genuine.
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You got me open and I let you in.
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