Is anybody out there...
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[Scarface]
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I swear I feel so all alone, back down on my knees again
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Hopin you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight
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I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites
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And I can feel the Reaper near, so please forgive me for my sins
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I am just another man, sorry for the pain that I've caused
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I know that you'll understand, these demons'll drive me - insane
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I've been goin mad, rightly oughta blow out my brains
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'Cause I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day
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These problems got me usin more drugs, along with the other things
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I'm slowly fading into my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on! )
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And I'm driftin in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up
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With the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another world
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Where the sunshine stay shinin, I think I was finna url
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Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't what I used to be
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Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, 'cause I ain't been me
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I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that there on every day
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Boy tryna figure me out, is like Lamar changing
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But my childhood was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single moms
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She told me my daddy didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job
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Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my next of kin
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These days in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are them?
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My daddy had three other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em
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So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't been here befo'
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It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze
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And when I tried to locate my siblings, they were gone away
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Lost inside they other things, fucked me then, fucked me now
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Quick to tell me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell
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Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't never felt this vile
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Momma - did you really love me, or was I just a child?
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Said it, outside, I knew you seen it in my face
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I wasn't really happy here, but I was forced to lead the way
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Copped me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to think
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If I get to see Heaven, I can thank you for the ride
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And thank you for my other kids and even though
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They mommas won't admit that they can't make it but bad,
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Low on the child support - always been bad boo, tryna make me out to be
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The bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so quick to hassle me
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'Cause I don't see my kids enough, but I make the time to pick 'em up
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But you find somethin to stick in my face - it ain't me fuckin up
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It's bad enough, face to face, always wanna catch a case
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So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and what takes the cake
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Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy know where the weankess at
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And you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit that?
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Jepordize everything, just for searchin for larger life
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Sacrificin the whole family, with no regards to Christ
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Funny how people can take this shit for granted, right?
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But then reality strikes, and changes things overnight
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I thank the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to doin wrong
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I repent religiously, hopin that the weak get strong
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When the heat get's on {*wind blowing*}
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Hopin that the weak get strong, when the heat get's on
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[Talking - echo after each pause]
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Ya know... there's 3 different stages of life
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Either, headin into a storm... ya in a storm...
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Or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) think about it...
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*music until fade*
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Sorry 4 What
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Scarface |